Sobriety has been the best blessing in Matthew's life

Hi my name is Matthew Payne and I am a recovering addict.  I am 37 months clean and serene from all chemicals. My sobriety date is 9/21/13. My addiction started back in high school with pills and drinking, and I continued that after I graduated. I was using every hour of every day.

It got to the point where I couldn't hold down a job and started losing everything in my life including my family and friends. I ended up spending every dollar I got on getting high. If I didn't have my pills, I went into terrible withdraws and wouldn't be seen by anybody until I got more. Once I had lost everything and everyone that had ever mattered to me I found myself homeless without a care in the world but to get high.

I was living a terrible life walking the streets of Oklahoma City, not knowing where I would sleep or what I would eat, all that mattered was that I was high. People had told me that I needed to get help including family members but I didn't want it then.  I just wanted to stay getting high and suppressing my feelings that I didn't want to feel. I had a skeletal statue, only weighing 130lbs. I was at death's doorstep when I woke up one day and realized I didn't want to live like that anymore.

I went to my family and begged for help and they got it for me. I checked into a rehabilitation center on 9/21/13 and I've been clean ever since. It was a true blessing to go to a rehabilitation center, when I was there I reconnected with my higher power and fought all the demons I had suppressed for so long. I came out of rehab with a whole new outlook on life, attending meetings even chairing some of them.

I absolutely love the new life I have now! I have found so much support from the recovering community.  Now that I'm re-acclimated to society I have now become a certified ISSA personal trainer. My true goal and dream Is to work at a rehabilitation center to work with addicts to show them a better way of living. I couldn't think of a more rewarding career than to help other addicts find this new joy in life that i have. Sobriety has been the best blessing in my life!