Kelsey's eye are sparkling once again
My name is Kelsey and I am a recovering heroin addict. I am currently three months sober. This is not my first attempt at sobriety, but I am doing everything in my power to ensure that it is my last.
Seven years ago I got into a car accident that left me with a severe neck injury, which I was given opiates for. I had no way of knowing that taking a medication that a doctor prescribed would end up turning me into a heroin junkie. Opiates took me to a place so dark that I did not see a way out. There was no light left and I feared that I would be dead before I could ever escape the grip that heroin had around my throat. I was alone in a dark, dirty, and lonely cave, biding my time getting high, being dope sick, or chasing down the dealer. I could no longer look at myself in the mirror. Who in the hell is that woman? That is not me!
I am NOT a junkie, but she is! I am NOT an addict, but she is! I am NOT a liar, but she is! I am NOT selfish, but she is! I am NOT a manipulator, but she is! Why am I letting her take control? How did I get here? I could see all these things, I could see myself deteriorating, wasting away, physically sick, mentally unstable, bruises up my arms, and eyes that were devoid of life. I could see that all, and still all I wanted was more dope. No amount was ever enough. But no matter how much I did, the demons didn’t go away. That is when I started to realize that I was going to have to face them one way or another, because no amount could have taken away my pain.
I finally sought the help that I needed, and I am so grateful for that today. My demons become less and less by the day. My eyes sparkle again. I am not alone anymore. God is taking the wheel from here! God Bless!