DeAna has reaped endless benefits from sobriety
Today is a big day for me, it marks 1-year abstinence from drugs. Wow, I can’t believe it.
I remember 2+ years ago when I first started on my road to recovery, going to meetings or even while I was in Detox, listening to people talk about multiple years sober and/or clean and just thinking, “woah, what I wouldn’t give for a few consecutive months let alone a year or more abstinent from this hell.”
And it’s true, when I was active in my addiction, it was hell for me. It didn’t start that way, obviously, or it may not have turned into the problem it had.
I’d be lying to you if I said I didn’t have good times or fond memories. Times that I couldn’t picture myself not experiencing or making friends I couldn’t now picture my life without.
But that doesn’t change the fact that at my darkest times, I wanted nothing more than to live my biggest fear of going to sleep and not waking up. For the problem to solve itself, so to speak.
Thankfully, I’ve either never been courageous enough to take that step or I’ve been too courageous too, whichever it is I am so thankful for it.
My life now is truly incomparable to what it was a year ago, 2 years ago, 5 or 10 years ago. I can’t imagine a point at any time in my existence that I was so at peace with who I am and so blissfully happy to be me.
1 year ago, I not only decided I needed to get clean but also that I needed to change my life entirely. I packed everything I could fit into my Yaris, sold the rest, quit my job of 3 years, broke my lease and drove just me and my Kiddy to Ontario in search of the change I so desperately needed.
For the most part people were encouraging. There were lots of pessimist’s and negative opinions which I see now was a reflection of myself and my own doubts. People saying that I couldn’t run from my problems and other things to that effect.
Here’s why this worked for me and failed for so many others; I woke up every day of the last year ready to face my demons and my shortcomings.
I looked myself in the mirror every morning and I dealt with my shit. I didn’t blame other people. I didn’t criticize my childhood and upbringing. I didn’t call my mom and get mad at her for not encouraging me enough as a child.
I accepted responsibility, I swallowed it and I have worked every single day to be a better person than I was the day before.
The funny thing about getting sober is you start to see and feel all the things and reasons why you were compelled to numb life out in the first place. And you have no choice but to deal because those kinds of problems don’t solve themselves.
It was like I woke up one day in the Spring and all of the sudden I had anxiety and I could feel myself slipping into old patterns in the months to follow risking all that I had worked for and sabotaging myself like I always had before.
Not this time.
The Universe knew I was ready; enter Ricky Goodall, founder of Elevated Academy. Ricky and I did a couple of powerful coaching sessions together and I was hooked.
The revelations and synchronicities I began to experience are difficult to put into words but they moved me so much that without much question I slowly started disciplining myself to eat better, meditate more, give more, save more, complain less, listen more, be an overall nice human and inspire people as I go.
Next thing I knew, after literally 7 Champax prescriptions, a variety of Nicorette products and countless attempts at the willpower approach I woke up one day and said no more to cigarettes.
My body is a temple, it’s the first gift I’m given and I’m not respecting that. So that was it, I stopped smoking. Then went drinking. Now I’ve given up meat and processed foods. And I don’t feel deprived at all, not even a bit. In fact, I feel incredibly happy and lighthearted. Especially since giving up meat.
It’s incredible but addiction comes in all kinds of colourful packages whether it’s drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, complaining, food, relationships and so on.
You can be addicted to many things, trust me. But it doesn’t have to be that way.
All you have to do is decide NO MORE.
You deserve better but no one can give you better except yourself.
You don’t have to tackle everything in a day, this was all over the course of a year for me. Pick the worst things and work your way down the list.
It’s difficult at first but you will reap endless benefits.
I still have a long way to go but I know I’m on the right path to getting there and with all of the positive changes I’m making, I can actually enjoy this adventure we call life!