Carly is 9 years sober

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One day - 8.17.08 to be exact - I said a prayer that saved my life. I got down on my knees & begged to be changed. I pleaded with God, whom I had never talked to before, to help me. I surrendered the chains of addiction I had been tangled in & from that day forward, I never drank or did cocaine again.
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The photo on the left is painful to look at & even more painful to show you. I was out of my mind wasted at Gasperilla in Tampa. That bottle of ginger ale is basically full to the brim of Captain Morgan. I had an 8-ball in my bra & if I had to guess I'm pretty sure it's already about half gone.
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I was blacked out after housing nips I had smuggled in with me & doing beer bongs, all before noon. Throughout this 12-hr extravaganza, I was also taking bump breaks every 20 mins at an abandoned house I found near by.
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At the end of this day I had wandered off (not an unusual story) from my friends on a mission to find more coke. When I came back to our spot, everyone was gone & it was dark now.
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I began walking with no real plan. You guys I was WALKING & a cop pulled me over. Because I wasn't walking, I was stumbling all over the place. I had fallen into a bush & had grass in my hair. He asked me where I was headed & I told him that was a great question...
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I called my friends to come get me. I couldn't even tell them where I was. I put the cop on the phone!!! True story. Mind you, I have a new gram of coke relocated into my pocket of this hideous denim skirt.
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Thankfully that day, I averted trouble. I was lucky he didn't search me & that he stopped me bc someone could have easily nabbed me.
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The photo on the right is me at 9 years of sobriety. I'm healthier, happier & more aligned with my faith than ever. The gift I was given that day in 2008 has been the greatest miracle of my life. God was looking out for me all along & a miracle was brewing.
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If you are struggling today, please know, you can be in the worst place possible & still change. All you have to do is ask for help & it will show up for you.
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We are born in one day. We die in one day. We can change in one day. Anything can happen in just one day.